I never expected
to like you like that. I vividly
remember that everything started like any ordinary friendship. You get to laugh
with my stupid humor and you never fail to make me smile with your corniest
jokes. I enjoy your company every time, and I love myself a whole lot more when
you're around. We spent so much time
together and we never noticed anything or anyone around when we’re together. We’re
simply the craziest around each other.
I see you as someone
whom I can talk to about anything, and whom I can count on. Yet falling for you is something I never
expected to happen. I started to like you after getting to know you more and
after seeing how crazy you could get and how serious you can be. I never thought that
I would come to the point of craving for your company. I've been longing for your
presence every now and then. I started to miss how you held my hand for so
long, how you kept on teasing me like your little sister, how you played around
with me like your childhood friend.
Your simple
gesture started to mean so much to me, every little thing about you started to
put color in my ordinary days. I too was surprised with what I’ve felt, I know
this whole thing is stupid, falling in love with you is simply stupid, no not
the act but the thought that a surreal friendship turned into something even
more serious.
I wanted to tell
you how much happiness you bring into my life now yet I'm afraid what might
happen to us. I can't afford to take our relationship at risk; I can't afford
to lose what we have now. I like and love our friendship and turning this into
something serious might ruined everything. And I can't stand that, I just can't stand that.
Yes, I love you
yet that's not enough reason to change everything. This maybe the hardest thing
in the world, yet I must and will forever keep this feeling inside me.
I'm choosing the
longer journey for the both of us. I'm choosing us to stay this way.
I chose you to
be my friend, to JUST BE MY FRIEND.
|A.
